So many people don't what parents are feeling and going through when they have lost their children to the state CPS and have their rights terminated turning their children into what is called a "paper orphan"

Parents who lost their children to the state have broken hearts, broken spirits, and they are not even a live we are walking zombies.  We have broken heart and  our hearts have wholes in them that can't be repaired or mended.

A part of us has been taking away and we wonder how our children will be treated by foster care givers or adopters. What lies will the state tell our children and what lies with our children's adopters and foster care givers tell our children about us.

Our children will be turned against us unless we can get to them once they turn  18 years old.

Our hearts are broken and State Judges, CPS wreckers, Guardian Ad Litems, and County DA and our family is responsible for breaking our hearts.

A heart can be broken but keep on beating just the same. It may beat but the beat is not the same.

Aujourd’hui touts Je faire étais pleurer chez ma centre de mental santé avec ma mental Santé conseiller. La e’tre très peu de qui comprendre que Je avoir précédent par en ma vie.

Jadis ma famille détruit ma seul joyeux mariage avec le homme Je amour avec tout de ma coeur. Elle faire ne pas seul détruit ma vie mais elle détruit deux autre vies pendant que bien.

Elle faire ne pas garder si elle atteint ma deuxième précédent marié nous et fille, alors que me en le traiter en tout.

Ma soeur aujourd’hui faire ne pas voir autre regretter pour qui elle a’ faire pour nous pendant que une famille.

Nous fille être aussi mettre en désordre parce que de la adoptif parents qui adopté la en 1984,

Ma douleur être alors que grande que la être mais une quo savior que Je Suis aller précédent tantôt.

Karissa

Almost 1 million white Americans were murdered, robbed, assaulted or raped by black Americans in 1992, compared with about 132,000 blacks who were murdered, robbed, assaulted or raped by whites, according to the same survey....

THE RACE WAR OF BLACK AGAINST WHITE

Paul Sheehan

From the Sydney Morning Herald, May 20, 1995

The longest war America has ever fought is the Dirty War, and it is not over. It has lasted 30 years so far and claimed more than 25 million victims. It has cost almost as many lives as the Vietnam War. It determined the result of last year's congressional election.

Yet the American news media do not want to talk about the Dirty War, which remains between the lines and unreported. In fact, to even suggest that the war exists is to be discredited. So let's start suggesting, immediately.

No matter how crime figures are massaged by those who want to acknowledge or dispute the existence of a Dirty War, there is nothing ambiguous about what the official statistics portray: for the past 30 years a large segment of black America has waged a war of violent retribution against white America.

And the problem is getting worse, not better. In the past 20 years, violent crime has increased more than four times faster then the population! . Young blacks (under 18) are more violent than previous generations and are 12 times more likely to be arrested for murder than young whites.

Nearly all the following figures, which speak for themselves, have not been reported in America:

According to the latest US Department of Justice survey of crime victims, more than 6.6 million violent crimes (murder, rape, assault and robbery) are committed in the US each year, of which about 20 per cent, or 1.3 million, are inter-racial crimes.

Most victims of race crime - about 90 per cent - are white, according to the survey "Highlights from 20 Years of Surveying Crime Victims," published in 1993.

Almost 1 million white Americans were murdered, robbed, assaulted or raped by black Americans in 1992, compared with about 132,000 blacks who were murdered, robbed, assaulted or raped by whites, according to the same survey.

Blacks thus committed 7.5 times more violent inter-racial crimes than whites even though the black population is only one-seventh the size of the white population. When these figures are adjusted on a per capita basis, they reveal an extraordinary disparity: blacks are committing more than 50 times the number of violent crimes of whites.

According to the latest annual report on murder by the Federal Bureau of Investigation, most inter-racial murders involve black assailants and white victims, with blacks murdering whites at 18 times the rate that whites murder blacks. These breathtaking disparities began to emerge in the mid-1960s, when there was a sharp increase in black crime against whites, an upsurge which, not coincidentally, corresponds exactly with the beginning the modern civil rights movement.

Over time, the cumulative effect has been staggering. Justice Department and FBI statistics indicate that between 1964 and 1994 more than 25 mil! lion vio lent inter-racial crimes were committed, overwhelmingly involving black offenders and white victims, and more than 45,000 people were killed in inter-racial murders. By comparison 58,000 Americans died in Vietnam, and 34,000 were killed in the Korean war.

When non-violent crimes (burglary, larceny, car theft and personal theft) are included, the cumulative totals become prodigious. The Bureau of Justice Statistics says 27 million non-violent crimes were committed in the US in 1992, and the survey found that 31 per cent of the robberies involved black offenders and white victims (while only 2 per cent in the reverse).

When all the crime figures are calculated, it appears that black Americans have commited at least 170 million crimes against white Americans in the past 30 years. It is the great defining disaster of American life and American ideals since World War II.

All these are facts, yet by simply writing this story, by assembling the facts in this way, I would be deemed a racist by the American news media. It prefers to maintain a paternalistic double-standard in its coverage of black America, a lower standard.

Lucie Elizabeth Ann

It's Tuesday, May 3, 2005 and I have an appointment with my psychiatrist at 3:15 PM and I am still very much under the weather with this virus I have come down with.  I feel very much run down. I did get up, take my bath, dressed myself, applied my war-paint (this is what my late dad referred to as make-up) and fed my cats.

The 1983 Movie "The Big Chill" is on Love Channel W, before that a movie on Princess Grace was on.   It is sad that Rainer III passed away and was buried two weeks ago.   His only son, Albert is now ruler of Monaco.

I did see a picture of Princess Caroline's children, Andre is the oldest, next to Pierre and Alice.  The children by Princess Caroline's late second husband who was killed in a boating accident.

Princess Stephaine's children were not there. Albert is not married.

The Government of Monaco changed their succession policy whereas Princess Caroline can ascend to the throne if Albert dies unmarried and without children to succeed him.

It's a some what cloudy day here in Chicago. Look's like the sun is trying to come out. I have to pay bills before I go to my psychiatrist's appointment.

I have placed the prayer for St. Dymphna above for everyone who suffers from any kind of psychiatric, mental or emotional problems above.

I had to download the new MSN IM 7.0 last night in my computer.  I think just about a few months I had to download 6.2.

Anyway, I hope and pray everyone else has a nice day.

Here is my new pix I took with my webcam today. I tried to look as good as I can. However, being sick is a drag.

Take care everyone,

Lucie Elizabeth Ann

Anorexia Nervosa is an eating disorder identified by an "obsession" for thinness, generally sought through self-starvation. Characteristic features include drastic weight loss resulting from dieting and/or intense exercise, poor body image, a drive for thinness and an accompanying fear of weight gain.

Anorexia nervosa afflicts as many as one in every 100 girls and young women. Its victims can literally starve themselves to death. Others may suffer from cardiac arrest as a result of malnutrition, while still others commit suicide.
Psychiatrists diagnose anorexia nervosa when a patient weighs at least 15 percent less than expected. People with anorexia nervosa don't maintain a normal weight because they refuse to eat enough, often exercise obsessively and sometimes use laxatives or force themselves to vomit as well.

Over time, those with anorexia nervosa develop all the symptoms of starvation. As their bodies conserve resources, monthly menstrual periods stop. With the stop of menstrual periods the body also starts to lose calcium from the bones. If anorexia nervosa becomes severe, its victims will develop osteoporosis (thinning of the bones), an irregular heartbeat and heart failure. Breathing, pulse and blood pressure rates fall. Victims' hair and nails become brittle, their skin dries, yellows and they may develop a layer of soft hair called "lanugo."

Without adequate amounts of water, the victims will suffer from constipation. As their bodies lose fat, their internal temperature falls, making them less tolerant of cold weather. Mild anemia and swollen joints often develop and muscles waste away.

As their bodies struggle to survive, people with anorexia nervosa can suffer from lethargy, loss of interest, increased feelings of worthlessness and hopelessness and other symptoms of depression that discourage them from seeking treatment.

Some medical researchers have developed two categories for anorexia nervosa. The first, called the "restrictor" group, are those who refuse to eat food. The second, called the "bulimic" group, attempt to restrict their food intake, but suffer from bouts of depression and purging cycles that are part of bulimia nervosa. Given their already weakened and emaciated condition, an episode of purging could prove fatal to people in this group. Abuse of drugs that cause vomiting, strong laxatives that cause bowel movements or diuretics to induce urination can also increase the risk of Cardiac arrest.

Marked by excessive dieting and obsessive weight inhibitions, Anorexia Nervosa is characterized by severe and persistent weight loss, a distorted body image and intense fear of becoming fat. It typically starts in the teenage years but in recent years has been seen in pre-pubertal teens who refuse to maintain a healthy body size. Clinicians estimate a loss of 15% of normal weight as part of the diagnostic criteria. Denial of the seriousness of the disorder is a primary barrier to treatment. Diagnostic criteria also includes cessation of the menstrual cycle

In Thanksgiving for the Gift of Our New Holy Father

In the Name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit,

Thank you Lord, for the gift of our new Holy Father! Thank You for this tremendous blessing. Please, Lord, bless Pope Benedict. Bestow on him, this very day, all the gifts needed - Wisdom, Understanding, Counsel, Fortitude, Knowledge, Fear of the Lord, and Piety. Thank You, Lord. Please protect Pope Benedict, strengthen him, inspire him. Help him Lord! Help him to lead your people and the world to You. Amen.

A Prayer for the Church

O Holy Spirit, Creator, mercifully assist Thy Catholic Church, and by Thy heavenly power strengthen and establish her against the assaults of all her enemies. By Thy love and grace renew the spirit of Thy servants whom Thou hast anointed, that in Thee they may glorify the Father and His only begotten Son, Jesus Christ our Lord. Amen (From the Raccolta)